January 4, 2013

Through His eyes

Yes, you are seeing this correctly. I have decided to dust off the old cobwebs and write a post on the old blog. I always have all these great posts in my head but never really find the time to sit and post them. Well, today I found time!

I was praying in the shower for my kiddos, as I usually do, and the Lord spoke so clearly to me today. I said the words, "Lord, I just want what is best for my kids." and I heard Him ask, "what's best for them to you or me?" to which I replied,"what????" Profound...I know! He said, "Let me rephrase. Do you want what's best for them through your eyes or mine?" I thought we wanted the same for them but I guess somewhere along the way I had mushed all four of them into one instead of seeking out what was best for each little individual.

Let me just say that I am not perfect nor have I ever thought I was! BUT I thought I was doing pretty well at this mom thing. Apparently I had lost sight of what was best for my kids. So I spent the next hour in prayer going after the Lord's heart for each of my kiddos. WOW does He love them and know them and cherish everything about them. I was in awe of how He poured out His affection over each one of them and then He did what He does best and poured out his love for me too. Because I had gotten off track and needed a little reminder and a lot of love to help me find my way back on track. 

Suddenly Psalm 139:13-16 became real to me! You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
16 You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

My time has exspired and now I must feed my kids...but let me add this before I go. This post was my heart being intertwined with my Papa's heart. This wasn't meant to bring judgement or condemnation on anyone! Just a mom trying to do what's right through His eyes!