January 29, 2010

There it is!

I am just so excited this morning! I love that Laney and Arkman will have a brother in about 4 months. I can't wait to see my two boys playing together and getting into trouble together! I am so excited to finally finish their room and start getting things set up for the newest Klingon!

I was just sitting here thinking about God's grace. I have a girl and a boy already and throughout this pregnancy I have stayed neutral on what gender I want. I didn't care either way...I just wanted a healthy baby! So finding out it's a boy made my mommy heart pitter patter! I have to say that finding out has really helped me connect with this baby and it's only been 24 hours!

And although we haven't decided on a name for this little guy yet, I have already begun to speak life over him! He has somehow managed to tug on my heart and it's just bursting with love to pour out on him! This is the feeling I have been missing for the last 5 months and I am soooooo glad I have it now!

These are the days that I cannot imagine doing anything else than being mommy right now! I love that God has allowed me stay at home with them and love on them all day long! Seeing my children playing together makes all the cares of this world fade away into a distant memory!

January 28, 2010

It's A.........

And a fun picture of my belly at 20 weeks!

January 20, 2010

bonding has yet to come

Thursday, January 28th is the day of our ultrasound. I was planning on not finding out and even convinced Mr.Clean to let it be a surprise. There is only one problem... I have yet to bond with this child. And although that might be common...I have not experienced that with either of my other children. From the moment I found out I was pregnant with Laney, I fell in love with her. I prayed for her, sang to her and talked to her everyday. Same with Arkman. There was an instant connection with them.

I know I am not a bad mother but I feel bad at times when I tell people that I have not bonded with this child. It's so bad that I rarely talk to the baby or prayer for the baby. Mr. Clean does most of that. I seem to have no interest. And that is the worst feeling in the world for me. So while talking my hubby, he suggested that we find out so that I can start planning a nursery, we can pick a name and speak that name over the child. I was hesitant at first but now I am on board.

So in about a week we should know what this little peanut is! If you would like to guess than head over to the survey on the right side of my blog and enter in your guess. I will post after we know and tell our families!