Amazed by His love

I am sitting here writing this...okay rather typing this crying! Happy tears! I am overwhelmed by the Lord's love for me and my family.

Quick backdrop for this amazing story...Dan is unemployed and has been since August. Unemployment runs out at the end of this month. We have submitted over 60 resumes and have had some call backs and interviews but have had closed doors.

Dan went to one company interview and was asked to come back for a second interview and then called in for a third interview with the president of the company. But that door was closed and left us wondering why.

A few weeks ago my parents were in church and they were attending a Sunday school class that had just started. They were taking prayer requests and they asked everyone to pray for Dan and I for a job. Another couple had asked for prayer because the husband was under so much stress from work that it was causing him to become physically ill. My mom was chatting with the women afterwards and it turns out that her husband was working at the company God had closed the door to for Dan. Thank you Jesus!!!!!

Sunday night I received a call from my parents telling me they had an envelope for me. It was from their Sunday school class. They had taken up a love offering for Dan and I. WHAT??? Some thoughts running through my head were..."They don't even know us." "We don't go to their church."  "Who are these people?"   and  "WOW, they totally get Your heart Jesus!"

I am still amazed and in awe of their hearts and generousity to a couple they do not know but loved on anyway! Jesus, I so want Your heart for people! I want to love on them at every opportunity I get. Help me to be love everywhere I go!!!!

Through His eyes

Yes, you are seeing this correctly. I have decided to dust off the old cobwebs and write a post on the old blog. I always have all these great posts in my head but never really find the time to sit and post them. Well, today I found time!

I was praying in the shower for my kiddos, as I usually do, and the Lord spoke so clearly to me today. I said the words, "Lord, I just want what is best for my kids." and I heard Him ask, "what's best for them to you or me?" to which I replied,"what????" Profound...I know! He said, "Let me rephrase. Do you want what's best for them through your eyes or mine?" I thought we wanted the same for them but I guess somewhere along the way I had mushed all four of them into one instead of seeking out what was best for each little individual.

Let me just say that I am not perfect nor have I ever thought I was! BUT I thought I was doing pretty well at this mom thing. Apparently I had lost sight of what was best for my kids. So I spent the next hour in prayer going after the Lord's heart for each of my kiddos. WOW does He love them and know them and cherish everything about them. I was in awe of how He poured out His affection over each one of them and then He did what He does best and poured out his love for me too. Because I had gotten off track and needed a little reminder and a lot of love to help me find my way back on track. 

Suddenly Psalm 139:13-16 became real to me! You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb.

14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.

15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.

16 You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

My time has exspired and now I must feed my kids...but let me add this before I go. This post was my heart being intertwined with my Papa's heart. This wasn't meant to bring judgement or condemnation on anyone! Just a mom trying to do what's right through His eyes!