November 11, 2009

Surprise!

I have said it before and I will say it again...we were done with two kids! Two was good for us. One for each of us to contain. Three means they outnumber us and that can be scary when you are out in public! Two...one girl, one boy...life was good and we had a routine down that worked well for us. But then God had to go and bless us with another bundle.

So now my perfect little routined life is interrupted. I want to be very honest with you... I struggled with this new news a lot! I loved being pregnant and giving birth with both my kids but a third baby scares me to my very core. I am not ready nor am I prepared to take on another life. I feel as though my life is complicated enough right now.

And talk about timing! Dan is laid off of work, we just finished the basement to give us a third bedroom only to be maxed again, and I am no spring chicken anymore. I know God is in control and I know He will provide. I'm not worried about that as much as I am my hormonal imbalance right now. I am a mess with my emotions and thoughts. I know it's only for a few more weeks and then I can start to normal out a little bit.

And you would think this would be good news for the family to hear??? But I have had some horrible responses! My heart breaks to hear some of their comments. I mean I don't have a disease...I am carrying a child, their grand-baby. I can only pray that this baby would never know the words they have said and the bad they have spoken over us! Because I don't live my life according to the world but solely to Christ! I know He will carry us through this hard time and I know He gave us this baby so He WILL take care of us!

I don't mean to sound negative myself...I am starting to get excited about having a another baby! It just took me some time to get used to the fact that our family of 4 will soon be 5.

10 comments:

Meghann said...

Baby Girl you are strong, I heard some bad stuff too but they come around I promise!! I am always here for you no matter what and we can lean on each other. We will finally get to do this together, close by!!! I love you!!!

The Gang's Momma said...

Hang in there kiddo! You will be great - and every single one of them is a blessing that cannot be compared. I do remember being scared and uncertain about my unintended surprises but I couldn't, and wouldn't want to, live in this home without them. They have made me who I am, parenting them has grown me and all five of them have been the best things for growing my walk with Christ. Total life lessons wrapped up in little bundles of cuteness :) Only, now, my first two bundles are big and handsome :) :)

TCC said...

Wouldn't it be interesting if they genetically engineered us so that a super glue-like substance was triggered and subsequently secreted to keep the lips from moving when someone began to say something not-nice to someone else?

Okay...not really. It just popped into my head and I temporarily returned to my days of teaching and talking about the what-ifs which of course then leads into ethics and...I'll stop now.

Anyway - I just want to speak life to you and your family. This precious child is a miracle not a mistake. Imagine what plans / purposes wouldn't be fulfilled without the blessing of this baby? No - don't do that. I pray that great joy would permeate your home. Peace would resonate through you and your home and a new hope would be birthed in you.

Be blessed friend.

mishmash-a little bit of this and a little... said...

I totally can relate! I have walked these shoes. Be encouraged young one! Its your family period! your family will not due w/out. It makes me laugh about the bedrooms because we were there. Kids will be fine and its ok if they share a room. since we moved our bedroom to the basement usually by morning we have at least 2kids in our room. thats just the way it goes. your in my prayers! God already knows the end result. always enjoy reading your blogs- we have a lot in common! :)

PressingIn said...

I found myself getting annoyed with the people who would have made you feel like that. I know, b/c we have been there too. Especially when it's Christian people who make you feel like you're foolish and doing something wrong. Children are a heritage people, not a curse!! I think that too many people use their physical eyes to see children, rather than spiritual eyes (I'm guilty of this sometimes on a daily basis). They may see your "financial situation" and think that you need to be more responsible, or "get a hobby" (we've been told that time and time again). Jesus knows what He has laid out for each of the children that you will have. It's His perfect plan that stands, not what others may think. I'm sorry that they hurt you. You're a tremendous mom and you're going to do just fine with 3 children. Maybe more! Only Jesus knows when our quiver is full, and I don't know about you, but I want to make sure that I have plenty of fiery arrows in my quiver to fire at the enemy. We'll probably end up with #6 at some point and time. And you know what I've started telling people who give me a hard time? I just tell them, "We're married, so what's the problem? I have nothing to be ashamed of." Seriously. The Lord wants us to have sex! :) Anyway, I love you and am praying for you. Jesus, FILL THEIR QUIVER!! :)

Livin' Life said...

Many have already written words of encouragement but I just wanted to share I have felt the same way. When I found out I was pregnant with our 2nd son our 1st was only 6 months old. It was a rollercoaster of emotions. I also had terrible responses from family as well. I totally feel your pain on that.

Feel love and accepted with your "Sisters" in the Lord. I accept and validate your feelings and will also rejoice with you in your blessing!!! Hang in there dear!! Your beautiful and amazing and God is going to do some great things in your life. We stand with you on HIs promisses!!

Promises Fulfilled said...

You are loved by so many here! You know what I think is so cool? The Lord blessed you with #3 because he knew that you would be the best mama for this precious little baby! I am so excited for you!

And by the way...you are younger now than I was when I got pregnant with my first...so, if you are no spring chicken, what am I? (just kidding - don't answer that!)

Melissa said...

Trust me, it is so worth it! We thought we were "done" and along came #3, the child that makes us laugh and not take life so seriously! My family said awful things, too about how they would never come visit if we had any more kids and what a stress it was for THEM (which is funny because it has been years since any of them have babysat anyway!). And, to top it all off, the obvious dissapointment over not producing any boys to carry on the Oh My Word family name! :)

We felt overwhelmed being outnumbered at first, but like everything else in life that God gives you, He gives you the grace for it, too! And, of course you've got Laney Bug to help mother another little sibling! :)

Classic MaMa said...

Yay! Another awesome little Klinger to love! You and Dan are just too good at having amazing kids. God must really trust you two a lot to give you another one!

On a practical note, think of all the cool things you'll get to borrow from your sister. :)

Oh, and you can so handle this! ;)

lehman said...

I know it's cliche but "His grace is sufficient!" That grace is something that He has been giving you and will continue to give you during the pregnancy with all the hormonal ups and downs, and for the years to come watching this life grow into what God intended. I will be praying for you and even for those people who speak out of their own opinions and not out of a love that trusts in the Creator of Life.